(for lack of a better term),
Thank You for giving me this day.
Thank You for all the lousy things
that will happen
because they will remind me
of how much
I need your help.
Thank You
for the unsolvable problems of
hatred
racism
sexism
fear.
These poisons
keep me
needing You,
keep me grounded
in my faith.
I want
to keep You
in the forefront,
center stage
of my mind
when things
are going well,
but when life is
smooth and transparent
like crystal,
I think
I don’t need You,
and I don’t
remember You.
Just like crystal,
it’s all very
beautiful and fragile,
but just one shift,
be it tectonic
or a raised eyebrow
can cause a crash,
a system shutdown,
a flood of tears
with no dam(n)
in sight.
I hate that
I only remember
to call on You
in my time
of need,
my rabbit-eyed fear,
but that’s when
I feel closest
to You.
So
thank You for all
the misery,
the bad fortune,
the unintended amputations,
without them,
I’d never seek
You out.
