It all seems so important
when you're standing in
the eye of the storm
with sweet memories
and heartbroken promises
blustering about you.
Instead of looking in the mirror
and asking "why me"
look at his picture
and say "poor fool".
The world is full of willing suitors
who would love to twirl you
under the starry sky
and coax out your honeyed laughter.
Every moment spent in regret
is another mile away from
the joy of the moment.
the painfully knowing among us,
who make promises
to the unanswering moon,
who believe in the happy endings
of countless black and white movies,
who have loved only
to not be loved in return,
will value your worth
and give you, in kind,
the love you crave
the love you need.
The unrequited know love in its most
unashamed and unguarded expressions,
from its enveloping warmth to its prickly cold.
Although the scar is permanent,
and it gives the unblemished heart
the nobility of experience and character,
the pain is temporary.
I empathize with the sad young girls
with their precious broken hearts,
for I too have often sold myself cheaply
for crumbs of attention.
And with each day that you
walk through the pain
the end of sadness gets
and the memories are less tortuous
and the rejection is less acute
and the new doorways are more inviting
and you wrap yourself in the
illusion of tomorrow just to endure today
and you pin your hopes on a thing called
"things will get better"
"someone will love me better"
"my outbursts of uncontrollable crying will get better"
"food will someday taste better"
"someday, I'll be better".
When the wounds are fresh
you can't imagine they'll heal.
and all the things that were magical before
are now merely empty reminders,
so let them go.
Yesterday got you to today
and today will get you to tomorrow
where your heart will dance again
and your eye will be unexpectedly caught again
and song will spontaneously flow from within again.
To wish for yesterday
is the folly of the lovelorn.
Make up a new set of prayers
to be answered.
In the meanwhile
treat yourself royally
be brazenly extravagant
eat what you want
dress how you feel
go out every single night of the week
and kick up your heels.
Do what you must to duck the grief
and cushion the initial shock.
The pain will be waiting for you
when you are ready
to deal with it.
In all likelihood
your beloved will return
contrite and almost pathetic,
and regrettably (for him)
it will probably be too late.
And you'll know you're moving forward
when your favorite love songs
evoke wistfulness instead of tears
and the solitude of Sunday mornings is
more tranquil than lonely
and old photographs of the two of you
bring knowing smiles
instead of frenzied plans of reconciliation.
The hope is that
someday the memories you've shared
will be divorced from their tragic endings.
Your presently broken heart
is simply a reminder of how
everything changes all the time.
Roses grow, bloom and wither.
Rainclouds come, release and go
leaving even more beautiful
blue skies and cotton clouds
in their necessary wake.
On this spinning blue planet
there is always sunshine
Go find your sunshine
and bask in it.
[Posted for #OpenLinkNight at dversepoets.com - where even a misfit like me can find poemlove.]